Today I have reviewd the theory of self-esteem, reminding me of what is really really important in my life and what is meaningful and principle to me instead of conforming to others without my own thinking, which is related to my recent worry about my grades and in fact, I focus too much on the outcome that unconsciously affects my emotion based on unsatisfaction to myself, trapped by perfectism,fearing of failure rather than perceiving it as a lesson to learn and being willing to cope with the fall down ,challenging myself.
Now I realize I complete an journal in one sentence.